Tiah

i want to be very close to someone I respect and admire and have somebody who feels the same way about me.

2011-05-31T21:13:00.004+08:00

I do my thing and you do yours. I am not in this world to live up to your expectations, and you are not in this world to live up to mine. You are you and I am I, and if by chance we find each other then it is beautiful.If not, it can't be helped.

The first thing you must know about me is that I always stand what I stand for. Good? The second thing you must know about yourself listening to me is that words are tricky. So when you know what me a stand for, when me explain a thing to you, you must never try to look 'pon it in a different way from what me a stand for.

I'm not going to hurt anybody other than that dick who keeps writing songs about me.

We can never turn back the pages of time .

2011-05-01T10:09:00.003+08:00

In your life, you meet people. Some you never think about again. Some, you wonder what happened to them. There are some that you wonder if they ever think about you. And then there are some you wish you never had to think about again. But you do.
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Have you ever heard a song from so long ago with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry? And didn't you wish that you could go back into time when everything seemed so much simpler and carefree? Those are songs that are the soundtrack of our lives... the ones that bring back childhood memories, best friends, first love, first heartbreak... the memories.awwww~

I look at him as a brother, then I realized I loved him.

2011-04-30T13:33:00.004+08:00

When I'm not there... do you think of me? When you're sad and something's bothering you... do you wish I were there to help comfort you? When you've had a long hard day... do you smile knowing that soon you'll be seeing me, and everything will seem better, even if it's just for a moment? When you lay down at night... do you look back and cherish the new memories you've made with me? And when you get up in the morning, does everything inside of you smile, knowing that this will be another day that we'll be together? because that's how I think of you...

I just want you to be happy dear ~

The times in life, that seems to be the worst, always turn out for the best!

2011-04-29T00:27:00.006+08:00

It's like I realized that way down inside, I've always been lonely for something. But I don't know what for.Btw , I'm NOT being emotional ok. It's like everybody in the world want's something. Only they never really know exactly what it is , they just keep finding out what it's not. You know how, when you turn off the TV or you come out of some concert, and everything just feels empty? Like you thought that would be what you wanted, and then it wasn't?

People are always telling me to smile, like smiling is going to just take away all the hurt and pain. Well I've tried that I've tried hiding my sorrows and covering the sadness in smiles and what I've learned is that when it hurts this much inside your heart always has a way of showing it no matter how many masks you wear.

I know it seems like I'm this strong person who can get though anything, but inside I'm fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.

As time goes by , life has a way of rearranging itself. People enter your life , and inevitably , they leave as well. Things have tendency to happen that can turn your world upside down. You'll come to realize eventually , that even though things are different , you are as well.

True friend

2011-03-14T22:17:00.000+08:00

My Bmc School Private friends...Friends with bad history in the past...Friends that can be trusted and understand me soo well..Friend that accept me just the way i am ...And cheer me up when im down..They've got a million ways to make me laugh.My dearest will always be remember..I love you guys..:)

2011-03-05T12:18:00.000+08:00

Welcome to earth my dearest niece...Alhamduliah my sis deliver this child safely...on the thursday 1.14pm..may u grow up and become a beautiful and a good girl ok dear.. I'm gonna be a good aunty for you ...syggg kamu dear ...

Our Life in this Story

2011-02-26T18:19:00.000+08:00

Our Life in this Story

One day of the many
Days
There was a man traveling on a trip with his Wife and Kids
And on the way he met someone standing in the roadway

So he asked him:
Who are you?

He said:
I am the money

So the man asked his wife and kids : Should we ask him to ride with us?

They said together: Yes of course because with the money it can help us if we wanted to do anything, and if we wanted to get anything we desired

So they took the Money to ride with

them

And the vehicle continued its way until the man met someone else on the r oad

So the Father asked:

Who are you? He said:

I am the high position and power

So the father asked his wife and kids : Should we ask him to ride with us?

So they all answered together in one voice:

Yes of course because with the high position and power we have the ability to do anything we want and own anything we desired.

So they took the high position and power with them

And the vehicle continued to finish its trip

And likewise he met in the same manner many people which give the pleasures and desires of this life, UNTIL .....They met one person on the way.....

The Father asks him:

Who are you?

He said:

I am the Deen (Islam)

So the father, wife, and kids said all together in one voice: No no...this isn't the time, we desire the pleasures of this life and dunyah, and the Deen will prevent us and ban us from these things and it will take control over us, and we will be worn-out from being loyal to it and its learning....And the halal and the Haram, and this thing prayer and that thing hijab, and this fasting , and and and and and etc... It will be a burden upon us!!!

Buuuuut from what is certain is that we will definitely return for you to pick you up but only after we enjoy this life and everything in it.

So sadly....they left him behind and the vehicle continued its trip.

And out of no where something appeared in the middle of the road

It was a check point in the road and it had a sign saying STOP!!!

And they found a man gesturing for the father to get out of the vehicle

So the man said to the father: The trip has ended as far as you are concerned!!!!

And it is upon you to get out and come with me.

The father was shocked with fear and didn't say a word.

So the man said to him: I am searching for the DEEN. Is he with you?

He answered: No I left him not too far back.... So if you can let me go back, I can get him for you :)

You do not have the ability to go back, your trip has ended and there is no going back now..... returning is impossible said the man

Um uh...but but... I have The Money, The high position and power, My Wife, My Kids, and and and and and and on.

The man said to him: They will not benefit you nor will they protect you in front of Allah.... Not one bit!

And you will leave all of this, and not one of them will help you except for The Deen ...you know? The one which YOU left back in the road.

So the father asked: And who are you exactly?

I AM DEATH

The one which you were heedless of and didn't take into account in your trip!!

The father looked at his vehicle and found his wife taking control of it and continuing the trip with all of its passengers but him

And none of them stayed with him, and none of them helped him in any way.

His Majesty said:

"Say: If it be that your fathers, your sons, your brothers, your mates, or your kindred; the wealth that ye have gained; the commerce in which ye fear a decline: or the dwellings in which ye delight - are dearer to you than Allah, or His Messenger, or the striving in His cause;- then wait until Allah brings about His decision: and Allah guides not the rebellious." Qur'an 9:24

And Allah the Majestic said:

"Every soul shall have a taste of death: And only on the Day of Judgment shall you be paid your full recompense. Only he who is saved far from the Fire and admitted to the Garden will have attained the object (of Life): For the life of this world is but goods and chattels of deception." Qur'an 3:185

Myra

2011-02-14T00:25:00.000+08:00

this picture was taken 3 years back if im not wrong
Myra darling , see the picture above there. you look soo cute like my butt when u were 12 years old.still remember the day i take good care of you when you were sick.touching kan?My dear bear this in your mind sometimes, you really can find the one person who will stand by you no matter what.
But there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along and that is me .i love you dear .

hijab .

2011-02-13T00:25:00.001+08:00

The another good side of me with Myra .This lovely picture was taken like 2 or 3 years back by uncle joe at pasantren(indon), we visited that palced . all the makams was great . my sister said to me :"Do you noe dat u are vry sweet & beautiful lau pakai tudung? pray for you someday you will wear hijab..:))" ♥ well! insyallah bile aku da khawin and ade byk2 anak nanti ..hahah! belom ready la dear...perangai masey evil..nyhahahah! no la .. if i wanna wear hijab i must correct my attitude first so that people won't look down on me & i have to be ikhlas & very ready to wear it so that i will wear it for the rest of my life not for just 5 mins and then i will take it off.. ..well , like it say ..When hijab is see through or when it's half on your head and half not or when it's on but your fringe is showing or when your hair is covered but your ear are showing or when your hijab's on your wearing skin tight clothes or when you think hijab is just the covering of hair that is not hijab sisters ..thanks my lovely sister siti rahuda appreciate all ur advise that u've given..will always be remembrance ...i know someday i will change ..insyallah ..

Nur Alesya Rianna

2011-02-12T22:23:00.001+08:00

Congrats to Yuki akimi and muhd hindra on your new born baby . Nur Alesya Rianna ♥ alhmdulilah ! you dilevered this baby safely ..

its sucks .

2011-02-12T10:13:00.001+08:00

And love is EVOL , Spell it backwards I'll show ya (EVIL)

And thanks for the letters dear

2011-02-10T20:03:00.002+08:00

alhamdulilah you da transfer to KBC to change for the better ..im happy for you ~

you take me for granted dear

2011-02-10T19:38:00.002+08:00

I don't think you understand the sacrifices that i made, maybe if this guy had acted right I wouldve stayed But i've already wasted half of my life.. Down and died for you i no longer cry for you..No more pain dear... you took me for granted...I can no longer stand it..Now my respect I demand it..Imma take control of this relationship Command it, and imma be the boss of you now goddamnitAnd what I mean is that I will nolonger let you control me So you better hear me out this much you owe me.I gave up my life for you, totally devoted to you while I've stayed Faithful all the way this is how I fucking get repaid

Ive done my best to give you nothing less than perfectness And I know that if I end this I'll no longer have nothing left But you keep treating me like a staircase it's time to fucking step And I wont be coming back so don't hold your fucking breath...thanks for eveything dear ~ <3

Unexpected relief

2011-02-09T22:30:00.001+08:00

I recently read of a story of a man who was paralyzed.He remained bed ridden in his home for years,and eventually,boredom and a sense of failure overcame him.Doctors were unable to do anything for him. One day, while alone in the house, a scorpion descended from the ceiling of his room, and even thought he saw it coming, he was unable to move. After landing on his head, the scorpion repeatedly stung him. His whole body, from his feet to his head, broke out into convulsions. Slowly, and to his astonishment, sensation returned to his limbs, and after a short period of time, he found himself to be walking about in the room. He then opened the door and went to his wife and children. They could not believe their eyes when they saw him standing before them. Only when they finally calmed down was he able to inform them of what had taken palce. How prefect is Allah, Who caused the scorpion to be a remedy for his ailment! wow! I mentioned this story to my science teacher and he accepted its occurrence as being plausible. He told me that there are kinds of poisonous serum that, when their toxicity is chemically reuced, are used by doctors to treat paralyzed patients.And Allah has not sent down a sickness, except that He has also sent down for it a cure.. How wonderful is that ...I smiled when i read this story like the picture above ... <3

bear that in mind

2011-01-15T17:35:00.003+08:00

My sister used to give me the best advice about shafiq and myself..

she say: "Err....if he change for the better..i'll b glad to welcome him w open arms if he stil like that like a chritmas tree..you noe the answer my lil sister..theres no need for me to mention here..every1 deserves a second chance if hes aware n re...alise his mistake..:)) May allah open up his heart to the rite path n YOU.. be a gd girl.. study hard dont tink abt relationship..dont let umie & abah dwn..alwas remember dat..anything happens only family can help you... thats all i want to remind you bebeh...the rest is up to you :)) ur lil cute pretty niece inside me says hi to you HEEHEHE ;).."

~Thanks my dear, you're my best sister ever.i will always love you...can't wait for my niece to be out of ur stomach..hahah!~

Muhammad Shafiq

2011-01-07T18:11:00.002+08:00

2 years 5 months & 27 days have been togather?

2010-12-25T20:32:00.002+08:00

& no matter how hard i try,

i can't stop missing you.

believe in yourself

2010-12-25T20:16:00.006+08:00

Stand Up For What You Believe In..

Even If It Means Standing Alone.

♥

Insyallah dengan izin Allah

2010-12-24T18:40:00.001+08:00

Thank you Allah swt for all the blessings ,Oh Allah Forgive all our sins, give us all that is good & keep us away from all that is bad. Ameen!

things change so do people

2010-12-14T22:56:00.004+08:00

I know a boy unlike any other he is Funny, kind, and really fine.. I sit here and see his face no matter what I love his face.. I worship the ground he walks on he told me that he loved me and that he always would just when I started to believe him his attitude changed to way too good..I found him with a Bitch doing more than friendly things but I knew in my heart that I still loved him and I asked him back out again no matter what he does, no matter what he says I'll always love him. now I wish that he was mine no matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, he'll never be mine in time, he'll never be my valentine.. he's waiting for the perfect time then his deed be done then I'll be gone with someone new and he'll be lost in love, he'll be with someone else until he gets hurt and then he'll come running back to me and want to go out again and then no matter what I'll take him in I'll hug him and hold him until he does it all over again well this is it it's the last time I won't take him back even if he is fine now I know he's using me I'm just a sick pawn in his game I'll never fall in love with him again.. I never wanna hear his name.. he said he loved me then took it back he cheated on me and treated me like trash he played carefully and tried not to get caught but he always did and now it's all his fault it's all his fault he won't get me back.. he'll never hold me tight in his arms, he'll never kiss the lips he said were soft and he'll never see my face again.. I hope he dies in lots of pain the pain he put me through.. I hope it's one of suffering all the way through and through... he hurt me once he hurt me twice but now I know the truth he just used me and abused me he didn't care if he hurt me I'm just another hoe to him.. he left me lying defensless
he broke open all my wounds he took away my heart and soul and left with no groom So now it's time to say my goodbyes so my deed is done..I know u have changed & you wanna be with me & yes u did apologized for a million time but I'm still hurt dear..I still love you soo much but being together with you i can't..but if you need a support i will always be by your side to support you..maybe you will learn and you will realized without me... :) Goodbye you sorry son of a bitch now I'm gonna have some fun..:)

:)

2010-12-14T01:37:00.001+08:00

Dear,
You can travel the world
But you can’t run away for the person that you are in your heart ..
You can be who you want to be… Make us believe in you keep all your light in the dark..
And if u searching for truth you must look in the mirror and make sense of what you can see.
They say learning to love yourself is the first step that you take when you want to be real.
Flying on planes To exotic location won’t teach you How you really feel.
Face up to the fact that you are who you are And nothing can change that belief……:)

im back darla .

2010-12-14T00:08:00.006+08:00

I don't know if I continue, even today, always liking myself. But what I learned to do many years ago was to forgive myself. It is very important for every human being to forgive herself or himself because if you live, you will make mistakes.. it is inevitable. But once you do and you see the mistake, then you forgive yourself and say, 'well, if I'd known better I'd have done better,' that's all. So you say to people who you think you may have injured, 'I'm sorry,' and then you say to yourself, 'I'm sorry.' If we all hold on to the mistake, we can't see our own glory in the mirror because we have the mistake between our faces and the mirror; we can't see what we're capable of being. You can ask forgiveness of others, but in the end the real forgiveness is in one's own self. I think that young men and women are so caught by the way they see themselves. Now mind you. When a larger society sees them as unattractive, as threats, as too black or too white or too poor or too fat or too thin or too sexual or too asexual, that's rough. But you can overcome that. The real difficulty is to overcome how you think about yourself. If we don't have that we never grow, we never learn, and sure as hell we should never teach...

a letter form baby ..♥

2010-06-20T23:41:00.006+08:00

Baby send me a letter from RTC. omg! Everything is about me . awww . How sweet of you ! but can't tell you guys is between me and him :D . alot of sayang2 things . huhhu!Well, I do read aloud to my mum and she laugh some part of it..Haha! ..(kompol duit bayank2 teros khawin)insyallah!but you really have to work hard!haha .. I know how much you miss me and i miss you too babyboy but trust me is just gonna be for awhile .. I'm soo happy that you've change alot . alhamdulilah. yeah!people changed right ?well, I will wait for you don't worry, i know you're scared but just rileks im not like other girls that left their boyfriends once the boy walk into prison . 1 year 6 months is just for awhile . time goes by soo fast . fast last . Now, Don't worry and don't be sad cause Everything's gonna be fine and i promise im gonna be alright too . i will keep sending you letters every month and i know so do you . i will wait till you're out cause i got alot of things to share with you . can't wrote everything on the letter .. see you next year .. love you babyboy .. muaxxxx ..

9 june .

2010-06-09T20:36:00.002+08:00

Hey , went to 140 at bedok north meet angy and fifi wildbabe then went to bedok inter to belanja that fifi for her b'dae.haha.belanja her contact lens.Only for $18.the cheapest one!haha!no mahal2!cause me no sen.she choose brown colour.very random seyy.then slack with angy and fifi while waiting Nana devil.die dtg semua cakap nana! makin gemok sak!wow!it has been for a very long time sia tak meet nana..last i saw her kat tamp inter..then,go babi tea which is bubble tea.. hahas to buy drinks..but i buy mee goreng lapar sak! ate at bawah block 135 i guess then ayu dtg seyum2..standard hahas..then lepak2 and have fun..but for fifi keciaan die..what a bad day! bare semua kene kat die..hahas..really miss you guys!espcially fifi and nana!oklah gonna meet you guys soon again on saturday nie!Girls outing babe!wee~

tata for now!!

:)

2010-05-31T21:00:00.001+08:00

chinatown>VivoCity>Grandlink>Home

haahsh .

2010-05-29T00:07:00.000+08:00

Fuck you ~~lisa sepet~~ ... stupid bitch .... Get a Life ...!

last 3 week...

2010-05-27T00:46:00.000+08:00

soufriii

hahaha!nie gambar yang tertinggal.kat chinatown from court.soufrii and anas thx on behalf of fiq okaey without korang2 susah siol.hahas! btw,insyallah next monday 31st i can make it.btw,miss those days man! haiss :(

bestfwen ..

2010-05-17T00:53:00.001+08:00

isvyn my bestfriend.

hey babi,sorry for not calling you today.u ask me to call 11.30pm then bile aku call ko tgah bawak motor.haiss.pantat la!den u ask me to call you back at 12 plus.sorry ah jack da penat uh.hehes.2moro okaey!btw,da blg ur pompan get well soon.keciaan die!hahs.because of you tawuk tak!last long taw dgn nora.kite challenge ah sape paling lame.me dgn my guy da 1 year 9 months , u dgn nora aru je 1 year 5 months.hahah.joking jela.btw,im gonna meet you soon macam2 nak share with you about my guy.haiss..btw,thank for being such a great friend.klah jangan lupe kalau we meet up soon bring helmet yang style2 untuk aku ehk.hahah..joking jela..hehe..tc.

.......

2010-05-03T21:56:00.002+08:00

Hey Guys , went to tampines just now thought of studying at the national library but end up study kat bawah block je cause ramai org. saw iqmah & her friends then ternamapk adstar(od)kat bawah block berbual jap. went to century square ternampak farahan idung dgn bapak die i guess then nak balik kat bus nampak hari and his friend. ramai peh my schoolmates kat tam.hahs.kecoh uh tadi.klah im out of words. these are some pictures of me and my friends.

~~the end~~

2010-04-27T20:05:00.001+08:00

MISSING YOU !

26 march 10

2010-03-28T14:43:00.000+08:00

Last Fiday was fun we when to E18hteen chef at Northpoint somewhere yishun there & we ate alot of food.with classmates.yeah!sedih!this year is our final year so we did have fun at there.hahahh .klah im out words.these are some pictures.

2010-03-17T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today , i went to perm my hair at bedok . well , i choose spa perm . kinda nice la . oklah . hahha . my lala , kin kin and my babyboy tag along . suroh dorang teman kan ! hahah . i went to take my contact lens too! pukimak drg ! salah order ! and they ask me to come back again on friday ! klo friday salah jugak or what ! i will claim back my money ! duh ! i wen to perm my hair at 12 +. and finised arnd 4 pm. lame pe . so , straight to baby crib . to eat at his house. his father at home & his brother also there to tattoo his father kening . style kan ! hahah . so , play crazy taxi & fight-fight . then go seng song at straight.these are some picture!

fuck you !

2010-03-17T20:39:00.000+08:00

Well these are yesterday pictures . soo tired to update semalam. haha . from bedok reservoir to tamp to bedok inter . tak gi jauh jauh sangat . malas siol! well i bought neckles , earings & make up not much . my babyboy bought a cap & suspended after that go mcdonald take away & makan at baby crib . malas arh nk makan kat macdonald . hahaha . till here guys . I love my baby !

muke! takle angkat sia!

muke masai arh!

he is mine till death.

2010-03-11T19:24:00.001+08:00

Hey hey! Today as per normal.First period cpa then english after that recess after recess Ebs after ebs maths after maths elective & finally contact time but all the upper sec go to the hall, talking about N & O-level.Boring!Today finished skool at 2.00.So, went outside skool for awhile to meet my guy & back to school for cca.hmmm.then went home at 6.00 reach home at 6.30.so the penat you noe.Hahah.This picture taken by fiza.i have a big leg man!haha.hahha.wee~ oklah till here.nothing much to say.Have a good day guys.toodles.

2010-03-09T17:21:00.001+08:00

Today school as per normal.Nothing much,first lesson EBS got (couserwork) for two period then recess after recess go smoke then maths lesson, after that english after english,malay & lastly Cpa.boring of cuase.taking N-Level this year.1.20 our school end & police at out outside school to check2 for no reason.take down everybody name including me.Then,i slack awhile with afan & my guy.Then, Straight to my baby cribs With afan cause she badly want to eat cake th haha.pregnant i guess!duh!so,we reach there 2ros main game crazy taxi!kekek sia.ketawe macam nk mampos sial! My baby father call us to eat nasi with crab & vegetable.Very delicious!cause My baby step mother cook very well!Then My baby sister give me & afan snicker haha! tak tau ape steam.so,after eat we smoke standard haha.then, my baby & i play the crazy taxi back! we contiue && we challenged! i guess both of us win.hahah!almost 4.00 pm afan already off cause she have to fatch her niece.I & baby still contiue play the crazy taxi psl tak paus hati!haha.shahril called & he wan to lepak with me & baby boy & we ask him to wait us at under the void deck.he did wait us with his skate board & then i already tired i want to go home so, they send me home & yeah i kiss my guy & i say good bye to shahril.Finally,im home!wee.reach home at 5.00pm.that all about today!nothing much!:D

2010-02-22T10:21:00.002+08:00

hey guys! sorry for not updating! due to my computer. my computer rosak sia . haiss && im right now soo the super busy && byk problems! now a days no time also nak update semua. i'll update soon ! hahhah ! till here ! i brb ! .......

yesterday !

2010-02-07T19:58:00.000+08:00

Bedok North , Tampines , Baby cribs , Orchard , Home

She will always be in my heart!

2010-01-27T18:17:00.001+08:00

Fifi wildbabe

Yesterday i meet my syg (Fifi wildbabe) . sial arh! has been for a very long time sia never meet my dearest babygurl . She is my only one okaey ! my parther in crime & everything la ! kite same2 susah & senang ! already 4 years being a syster & still counting ! How i wish i could turn back the time! kimak! i miss those day sia! sleeping with you,mandi with you,get caught togather with you,buat kecoh with you,curik barang with you,belanja each other & many2 with you la.hais.Tak sanggup nak lost contact with you!i still remember when i heard that you da tak skool lagy i was like huh?serious?sodeh sia!i cry tau tak!i know you cry too when u read the msg that i give you kt FB!Hey! my mother miss you tawuk tak!hahah!she ask me , why fifi da tak dtg rumah lagi then i say u busy with working la!hey,my sister khawin jangan lupe dtg!my mum suroh ajak u seyy!hahahah!sorry,if tady you got turun outside skool & im not there!i go my baby cribs la!hahha.already msg you last night taw!you should know!hmm.hey baby,thx for being with me when i really need you !You are the most bestfren yang i paling syg taw!afan,lala,iana,sue is just my love but you're more then my love!my b'dae is next friday!jgn lupe!hahah!gonna celebrate ramai2 after our cross country!i hope you can make it!I LOVE YOU!thats all im gonna post!

family love ~

2010-01-24T15:26:00.001+08:00

Yesterday , i went to maks place with family!kite mkn besar!wee~My dad belanje us seafood.hahaha!then my dad give me 20 dollars because he got some extra or bonus im not that sure.hais!my dad Tak habis2 kasi aku duit!haha!but i like!thanks abah!i love you!hmmm!well,i enjoy eating with my family,Bukan selalu dapat mcm gini.once in a month je.haha!kekek arh.My brother,my sister & myslef ketawe kekek2 sia.sampai satu maks place tu ley dengar.hahahh .haiyaa.My mother pon join sekali.hahah.My mom nak buat kelaka pon tapi tak menjadi.hahahah.I love my family very very very the much!Thats all

!here are some pictures taken by me!sikit je tak byk !hahahahahha!toodles!

My sister yang paling irritating!

My brother yang paling gile & My afif!

lastly. myself !